I have been thinking a lot lately about what it is I do, and also the question you asked during my AstroRx: “What does your craft demand from you?”
I walked away from the magical worlds back around 2000. In big part because an old Spirit told me to. I think the why behind that telling was I’d kind of hit the wall. Which wall? Why the wall that seems to exist between magic with a ‘k’/Western Esotericism and the rest of the world. I needed space from the whole social world of the occult to integrate 15 years of practice into a life.
So I stepped way back. And somewhere along the way I discovered that I was an artist. I can write songs, I can make jewelry, I can write. And, like you, I am a ritual artist. Now the Ritual Artist side is one that I have had difficulty sharing. I need my quiet space to get connected up. My jewelry is one way of sharing it, and I find that I do actually need to share it.
When I dropped back into the social worlds of magic and such, things had changed. So many publishers, books, blogs, teachers…and so much weirdness between and within so many sub-groups. I am a hard-core, traditional Eclectic from the Old Line. The Old Line being ‘from before ‘eclectic’ was a slur’!
And part of what I am finding now that I am back is that I don’t have much tolerance for intolerance. Sure, I can get a little snarky at times, but I try not to spread it around. I don’t want to live in it. Because I think people are generally trying incredibly hard to do magic that matters. And what doesn't matter to me is if they are Christians, Buddhists, Witches or Atheists. I mean, I understand it matters to them and their peeps. But in the grander scheme of life on Earth right now it is the magic that matters. That gnosis (and dear Gods: how did UPG turn into a slur, as well? Everything meaningful that has ever happened between me and the ‘Gods’, however we may choose to define it/them, has been UPG!), that knowing, that we are influenced and have influence with and through Powers that at least generally present as ‘other’… we need this so much these days.
Because magic that matters is life that matters. As art is life mattering. And magic is, in a sense, the active love between human life and the rest of the Universe. The Universe demands, and responds to, our attention. Magic to me is the art of giving that attention intentionally, with respect, and (hopefully!) grace.
As the world’s (possibly) foremost authority on dirt sorcery, it is my job to give it all I got. To open up and feed the Spirits that feed me. My craft demands that I find ways to spread it around.
P.S. to readers who are not Bri: Bri Saussy is the awesome force of nature that you can find at Briana Saussy.