I started offering magical work for hire a few months back. As I write this, I have just closed this offering. I’d like to talk a bit about my experience of this, as it may prove interesting and/or useful to some.
First: This was in most ways an awesome, fantastic experience! Many thanks to those who trusted me to do work with them, I thank you. You were perfect! I hope all that we did serves you well. Know that my stopping had nothing to do with any of you, but has to do with how I actually work and it’s ramifications on this end.
I started this project at the instigation of my allies. I had the initial idea, and got a very bright green light to go ahead. I then looked at what I would like to do, and how I would put it out there. This in itself was pretty fascinating (and I’ll be using that word a lot!), as it helped me to define as best I could what it is I do and a bit of how I do it. I find my work very natural, so I don’t generally have to think too mud about it in these ways unless I get inspired to write a blog post or something of the sort.
As I began to get contacted by folks for work, something very interesting happened: I started to get suggestion for work ‘out of the air’, or as I view it, from ‘my people’. These were each unique, full blown plans of attack, with pieces for the client to do and pieces for me to do. A lot of this had VERY little to do with how I would work for myself. The results seem to have been rock solid for the most part, from the reports I have received back.
The image that I received of the work was mainly one of working with threads- not surprising, really, in light of my sense of the Weavers as the field of magic personified. It was clear that I could in some fashion find the places were the threads of a persons wyrd had gotten tangled & knotted, and untie/unknot them so the Weaving was able to continue from the places where it had been damaged.
The actual nature of the work as I perceived it was that I would essentially ‘drop into’ the Weaving. ‘My people’ would connect to the clients’ allies/people and come back with a method to do what the client needed. This was very fluid.
An aside: The biggest change I have had in my work in the past year has all hit in the past few months. This is realizing that I can open to my allies/the field/the gods/whatever-it-or-they-are, and let them have their say, to a far greater degree than I ever have. I believe this is part what my allies wanted me to experience, and that doing this service work really allowed me to open to that in a way that I hadn’t outside of direct ritual work before. For me this has been amazing on so many levels.
The larger, ‘Whole Shebang’ work that I did was unsurprisingly the most interesting. In all cases, there was an initial contact, checking in with the allies to see if they felt it was a good match, taking care of the business up front. After that, there was clearing work- this was the untangling I mentioned earlier. Often this happened without me really having a conscious goal- sort of like brushing out really tangled hair- it was clear what worked and what didn’t. But if I outright asked ‘what is happening here?’, I’d be able to express it pretty succinctly. Not to say I was being all clairvoyant and shit, just that I could pretty much describe the origin, see the solution, see how all the pieces fit in an energetic fashion. Like I said, fascinating!
However, there were some major downsides: my already scattered mind became even more so. At the points where I was actively processing the ‘untangling’ I’d get highly influenced by the tangle. Which makes sense, as this is how I always work through things on my own- bring it inside, and sort it out in there. This is less fun, however, for the people you live with, especially if they are highly empathic. My wife ended up having to put up with me being weirder than usual during chunks of the process. I expect I could have created some protocols to minimize the effects from this, but it didn’t really make sense to change my whole working approach. I like how I work with the things/allies I work with. I also found that the energy output was so much so that I was falling behind in the shop. The shop being my primary focus both as business and practice, that was not going to be sustainable.
So the decision was made to close down that side of things. Immediate change in all energies, very solid support from all sides. It feels much better to focus on the shop and the house-hold work right now. It is on one side a hard decision to make- it’s rare to be able to do work with such solid feedback that I am actually helping people directly. On the other side, it is a straight-up relief to let it go.
Happy to answer questions if anyone has any.